Life is defntly a race, but winning alone isn't its goal!!

Two years of decission making..
atleast an year wondering..
and a couple of months discussing..
whether finance is a right line for me to choose!!
Lots of confusion all through.. even if its fin, wat in fin, variety of profiles being offered, wat to choose among them? I could eliminate a couple of them with great difficulty, not that they r boring, but that i may not be good at it :P

Finally, i freeze my decission and promise not to look back.Decide to take up the job i wld love to try out(which just came in my way:D), without giving importance to location, package and not even parents apprehensions. All these, just to start the journey all alone, to find myself lost in a vast flow of people from all sides. Run all around to spot a decent place to live in, keep shuttling to office and home, hoping that some day, i wld work on somethng remotely related to the dream job i have imagined. well, doesn't it sound usual?

While i was preoccupied by all these thoughts and finished complaining abt it to every possible frnd of mine, was sitting completely idle to think wat i was expecting. As usual, when we hav nothing much to do, we tend to think philosophically and probably thats wat i am upto now :P
If at all I am good, i must be able to make a difference no matter wat work is given to me( fine, its another matter that thrz no work at all as of now :P) .
Why do we keep praying or expecting things which would make us busier than wat we are now, why do we always want to do "the most difficult job" (in our perspective atleast), why struggle hard to get a job which would just make the struggle harder? And after achieveing all this, keep wondering y we dont have time for ourselves and if this is wat we live for and is that all life has for us?

If these thoughts do stop us at some point of time, suddenly the competitive spirit in us wakes up and forces us to push all these thoughts aside, bcoz, to win in life,we need to achieve wat we want to and hence the struggle for these is must for us to be happy. Atleast as now, we dont know wats gonna come true. But defntly we cant sit back and keep thinking, for, this is not going to take us anywhr.

So, whether we think about all this or not, we eventually do get trapped in this daily run for success and finally may succeed with out knowing whether, thats wat we wanted at the first place!!